oh yeah right you have to make like posts on this thing, i forgot

[mothras]

i downloaded league of legends out of curiosity yesterday which is how you know my life is really going downhill. after being yelled at by another player for being a total newbie i doubt i'll have much inclination to play again though. tbh i only downloaded it because of the k/da video which shows you just how easily influenced i am by women in cute outfits with magic powers

in real life news, i still really want to change my name. to make a super long story very short, my mom is a narcissist and has been suffering from a neurodegenerative disease for a while, which has naturally led me to have a lot of Deep Thoughts about how my life has been and where it is going (don't worry, i am very definitely actively looking for a therapist). one of those thoughts has been that i straight up, 100%, just do not like my name! fiona is not me, it has never felt like me, and maybe at one point i could have liked it but i would dislike hearing any series of syllables that got yelled at me a lot, so. i am probably going to start going by a different name soonish. maybe melissa? my dad said he would've named me melissa if he'd had a choice in the matter. on tumblr i went by liz because elisabeth is my middle name and i didn't want rl friends/family to find me there, but elisabeth + my last name is too common if i wanted to use it as a stage name when i register for the screen actors guild. i honestly want to use hawke as my last name hahaha 

anyway i'm watching the new jumanji movie and it's fine. might fuck around and watch muppets christmas carol later tonight if i'm feeling festive. how are you all?? tell me what's new 

Comments

[casualbird]

i understand your predicament, for i, too, am powerless to resist cute magic women. (the first time my friend let me read his d&d player's handbook, i leafed through it at speed for about an hour pointing out all the pretty girls. dungeons and dragons fifth edition Girlfriend Book.)

i've also changed my name, and that's some hard shit. it's easy to agonize over what exactly you should call yourself, and what other people are going to think about it when you start. at least you seem more levelheaded than me, so you won't run off on a lark with something old and fancy and french, even though i don't have a drop of french in me. good luck!

[mothras]

god i know!! i feel like the time to have done it would be in college, but now i'm a Real Adult and if i announce i'm changing my name for anything other than stage name reasons it seems like the sort of thing to open up a can of worms, but i've already made these worms so i may as well lie in them. also while i seem levelheaded, you should know that several of my potential name choices are not only french but also things i have named my characters in various bioware games. thank you though, it means a lot <3

[birdjay]

okay my 2 cents is that melissa hawke is the coolest most badass name i've heard in awhile.

[mothras]

really? thank you so much!

[birdjay]

yeah really!! :) it sounds really put together in an awesome way.

[derry]

I think changing your name sounds like a good idea under these circumstances. And Melissa is a lovely name. :D

Also, ugh, being yelled at in multi-player video games is the worst. I haven't touched League of Legends precisely because I get enough of that in Overwatch. I really don't need more yelling. XD

[mothras]

thank you!!

god i never turn on voice chat in overwatch, i KNOW i can't aim, i don't need that reiterated by xX420_VapeLife_69Xx the reaper main, i just want to grind for lootboxes in peace